so I’m sure the lot of you are wondering what landed me in the hospital in the first place.

Monday night I kinda lost my temper over something stupid at work, and when I was reprimanded, I was afraid I was going to lose my job since this isn’t the first time it happened. I was scared and suicidal, because if I lost this job there’d be no way I could recover. I couldn’t even sleep it off. Before work on Tuesday, I tried to choke myself with my belt, but stopped halfway through. When I went into work I was clearly messed up. My team leader asked what was wrong and I replied with, “I’m depressed, I’m scared, I’m sleep-deprived, and I had a relapse on my suicidal thoughts” and then just started crying. She had me go into the bathroom to calm down for a few minutes, but she brought it up to the head chef, who brought it up to the human resources people, who later called me into their office. I explained everything to them and they were extremely worried, so they sent me to the hospital (taxi fare and i’m pretty sure medical bills paid). I first went to Framingham Union hospital’s ER, then they sent me off to St. Vincent’s, where I spent the next few days.It was largely boring, but they upped my meds, and I did feel pretty safe and calm.

So I’m back now, and on paid medical leave at that. All I have to say is, my company’s reputation is very well-deserved.