You know it’s funny. A few years ago, I could’ve gone either way about getting SRS. I always intended on getting it, yeah, but I was willing to wait a bit.
But now that I’m actually full-time, I’d really like it as soon as possible. I feel like I’ve fallen behind. There are girls who started after me who went full time within just a few months, and some of them already have surgery dates. I don’t even have my name changed yet.
I feel like I fell behind. I never had any friends on my side of the spectrum, and the only one I did had hers done at age eighteen. She’s such a unique case that nobody can compare to her. I didn’t have peers to examine and look to for encouragement, just about 50000 FTMs.
I just feel like I really screwed up.
(of course, my parents don’t help matters much…)
