406) I don't want to go to my lecture tomorrow morning as a guy. I want to go as I am now, presented as I am, female. But I can't work up the strength. While I feel like for the first time I'm properly passing as my preferred gender, I don't have the strength to be myself out of the house and it's hurting me far more than I ever thought it would. I just want to be able to be me without fear. I know that it shouldn't matter how well I pass or not and it should just be me going out as me, but it does...